Thursday, May 22, 2014

Resiliant

If you had told me prior to this, that in less than a month after major spine surgery, The Monkey would not only be up and about like normal, but also running, jumping, wrestling with her brother, and playing violin on stage at Hilbert Circle Theatre again; I'd have called you a liar in a heartbeat.


I've been absent this blog too long. 

My apologies.

But life has this habit of getting in the way of things.


Exhibit A: The Monkey undergoing a Posterior Spinal Fusion at St. Vincent's Payton Manning Children's Hospital this April.


I'm not sure where April went, honestly. It flew by in a blur of hospital waiting rooms and family surgery centers and humming fluorescent room lights and reflective tile flooring and the soft buzz of sympathy and machinery hooked up to my child...


If you haven't hugged a nurse today? Do it. Right now. Those people are the strongest, most caring group of men and women I've ever had the privilege of being with. They are at the same time soft and hard, caring and insistent. They move mountains and wipe tears with the equilibrium of someone who has lived a thousand lifetimes. 


And, while I've purposefully left off grand details of The Monkey's particular ordeal, because the memories of that little body post-surgery still brings the sting of tears to the back of my throat, I will say that the capacity the human body has to heal has absolutely stunned me.

By all rights, this kid should still be in bed somewhere, and yet here we are...back in the thick of things again.  And, while I white-knuckled every new step she took post-surgery, I've finally come to the point where Sophia's back isn't my first and last waking thought. She's healing. In the way that only that scrappy little monkey can - at warp speed.

god help us all...I think that kid could do just about ANYthing she puts her mind to.


















Thursday, May 15, 2014

Shit I've Made This Month...

Predictably, when my life starts to spin a little out of control, the amount of baked goods and crafts I turn out increases exponentially. I crave the control that I can exert over these small things...when I start to lose it in other areas. The last 30 days have been no different.

Things I've purchased in the last 30 days:
4+ yards of miscellaneous fabric
2 yards elastic
6 spools of thread
two new skeins of yarn
two new crochet hooks
half pound felt
new needles for the sewing machine
6+ yards nylon cording
12 D-rings
5 onesies
2 packs iron-on letters
...



It's a sickness. I know.

 One handmade 'Owie Doll'
Both machine & handstitched cotton blend body & face, felt accents and accessories.
Complete with 30 handstitched, multi-colored band-aids, machine stitched arm sling, faux-casts, head wrap, eye patch and roll of 'injury tape'.
Both sets of clothing for the doll are reversible - so she's got four outfits (one of which looks shockingly like a hospital gown. Go figure, right?). This was, obviously, too labor-intensive a project for a kid who couldn't even play with the finished product until after she left the hospital. But it kept me occupied in the wee hours, when I would otherwise be obsessing over our impending hospital stay.


One (of three made) machine stitched, front-tie shirt for The Monkey.
Post-surgery the kiddo couldn't dress herself, let alone lift her arms up enough to put on a regular Tshirt. Everything itched, or hurt her incision site, so I altered a pattern from Meg Mcelwee's 'Growing Up So Liberated". I added internal and external side ties, rather than finishing off the full side seams. I also opted out of binding the neck and arm holes to make the shirt as simple and quick and soft as humanly possible for The Monkey. She lived in these 100% cotton knit shirts for nearly two weeks.


Necessity being the Mother of all Invention...
I made belts this month.
The Munchkins are outgrowing every stitch of every thing that they are wearing. Belts included. And I refused to buy $50 in new belts of all things. So a quick trip to the notions aisle at Joann's resulted in $20 of yards of nylon cording, a couple spools of ribbon, a handful of D-rings. Ultimately turning out about nine new belts for the kiddos.
There are an abundance of tutorials out there on making your own belts, but I was just sort of winging it and they all turned out just fine...
Word to the wise - tighten your stitched reinforcing lines nearest the D-rings as possible, kids. Trust me on this one.



Random onesies for the sister with the new twins. 
Because I couldn't help myself. And it only took 15 minutes.
I love it when a project both turns out AND can be completed in under 20 minutes...


So, there you go. 
Midnight crafting continues to be my coping mechanism.
I want to say "it could be worse" but you haven't seen my fabric stash lately...

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Quotable

"I am lonely, yet not everybody will do.
I don't know why, some people fille the
gaps and others emphasize my lonliness.
In reality those who satisfy me are those
who simply allow me to live with my idea of them.

-Amais Nin 

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

It takes a Village

"We made that" the ex-hubs nudges me with an elbow, smiling and nodding toward our nine-year old perched on a riser at the front of the school gym, singing with the choir.

"Yes," I agree, recalling the obstinate tilt to her head & the tip of her tongue that peeked out in concentration earlier when she was accompanying on the xylophone. "But I think there's more of you than me in there today..." her crystal blue eyes flash up at us with a quick pre-teen twist of a smile lobbed at us both, squeezed from her almost painfully in front of the throngs of parents and friends in attendance.



The strains of Carole King's 'You've Got a Friend' bring pinpricks of tears to the backs of my eyes, and I glance up at the gym rafters and blink. Hard.

"Nah" he continues. "She practices! That's all you...that dedication"
I snort softly, instantly taken back to days of endlesd band rehearsals and auditions. These kids all have their father's music in them at a cellular level. It sems like just yesterday they were climbing into his guitar case, curling up in the body of it like a nest While he picked out a tune & crooned soft, nonsense lyrics to them as toddlers. A lifetime ago.

But it's comfortable,  this patter between us.

Meanwhile, our youngest slips her hand stealthily into Penny's a few feet away, and my phone vibrates, a message from The Captain. And I marvel at how lucky we are to have built such a cocoon around The Munchkins. To have found people so willing to accept them into their hearts.


Co-parenting is a rough road. Whether you live in one house or two, whether there are one,  two or four of you, it's just rough. And it takes time to hone out what everyone's roles are along the way. There's no right answer,  no cookie cutter that fits everyone. You try and fail and try again.  Our village is ever-changing, ever-expanding.

We've clawed our way into a good place, though, think.

And for this I am so, so grateful.

Thursday, February 13, 2014

default settings

Happy is not everyone's default setting.    And that's okay.


There's a lot of beauty that can come out of sadness. Out of anxiety. Out of being uncomfortable.


Get to that place where you are comfortable with being uncomfortable. #ConsciousDaily

Thursday, January 16, 2014

Scrap Bin

This morning was an rough morning.

The girls were bickering.
Everyone's cereal was 'too soggy'
The Boychild locked himself in the bathroom.
I was on my knees removing a doorknob at 7:40 this morning.
I cried, very quietly, the entire car ride from school to work.

It was one of those mornings that makes me question if I'm doing the right thing here.
You know?
Yep. you know.
You have those mornings too. I know you do.
It's what keeps me moving.



 this weekend I let The Munchkins play in the scrap bin and this is what we came up with
 These little guys are just filled with beans & polyfil (beans help them sit up a bit better).
They're cotton flannel bodes + felt faces & accessories. All three came together in about an hour and the kids got a kick out of stuffing their own dolls, picking out body & hair & eye color, picking faces and expressions...


speaking of expressions - this kid lost her first front tooth this past weekend. She lisps now. I make her say difficult words just to hear the soft shushing sound of her tongue sliding between her teeth.

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Snowcreme

What's to do when the snow outside is accumulating faster than you can shovel it?

Make Snowpocalypse Treats of course!



Snowcreme How To:
Hands-On Time: 10 minutes
Ready In: 10 minutes
Yield: Serves 4 excited children (or two VERY excited adults!)

Ingredients: 1 cup half and half or milk
1/3 to 1/2 cup granulated sugar (adjust to your taste)
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
4 to 6 cups clean, freshly fallen snow

Directions: In a large bowl combine milk, vanilla extract and sugar. Stir until sugar is dissolved, about 3 minutes.Stir in snow, a cup at a time, until the ice cream magically forms! Freeze for several minutes if desired before serving.
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